Miss Looney Tunes

time flies, things change, situations too. i realized love cant be the only thing to depend on to keep things going. things are making me harder to breathe now. i can only cried silently while pretending nothing has happened. i'm tired, exhausted and i guess he is too. where have we go wrong now? what have we done? i booked myself a ticket to fly. Even if i have to part with all my prized processions i'd collected over the years. My first bag that i paid for, my first shade, my books, etc. Things will be good isnt it? i'm trying harder to convince myself now. i told yihui, let's go aussie for a holiday man, i desperately need some space to breathe, away from everyone here and she said yes! woo hoo...so the two of us are going to work towards our breakaway trip. To aussie and to new caledonia (which is shown in Korean drama, Boys Before Flower), which i tried hard to persuade her about it. cheers to aussie, cheers to us, cheers to a new year. Then, from aussie, i'll fly to uk to meet my cousin.

To think about it, it definitely gonna be a good year ahead, leaving me rejuvenated and dead broke. hahaha..

New Caledonia - Maldives competitor!
http://www.newcaledoniatourism-south.com/home.cfm

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die...

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on,
So I'm already gone

Cheers mate. (:

carol and her BIG head. 10:24 PM

Things are the same. But there's gonna be lot of changing this week.

1. Decided to stop my jap due to commitments.
2. This is my last week with my current company. Feel kinda moody and upset thou. Good time flies isnt it?
3. Going Bangkok this weekend. Cant wait but am fucking broke. Ho ho ho..
4. Look for a job. sigh..economy isnt any better.

Oh well..my timetable for next term is out. And i'm having lesson every thursday 330p-630p only. Like WTF!?! Quite boring thou. Thought can finish my semester earlier. LOL.

Having alot of thought gg thru since just now. I realised that something called manage your expectations. I guess..maybe i just been too harsh on myself. Things dont usually go your way. I'm quite dishearted with how things turned out to be. I guess ppl arnd me are right..no point rushing into issue when u are not ready. What you want, arent always what you get. I'm too spoiled here i think...

Sigh...let it be, let it be..

carol and her BIG head. 1:23 AM

Alright...connie is nagging me. I know..i'd been spending too much time tagging and writing notes but doing nothing to my blog. Oh well..hahaha...

I'd been thinking. I'm putting on weight..i need to start running again, desperately. I think i'll die if i do..hahaha...10k first. no rush!

suppose to meet up with connie for a boardgame but no one cfm. :(

Daddy called to ask to go home.For some important issue. That's scary.

I wanna crap! But no one is in the office. :(

La la la..hahaha..

After reading my nearly non-exsistent tagboard, i'd decided to reply to some ppls here.

1. Fei: I WANT TO ORDER FROM THEM BUT I'M SO FUCKING BROKE THAT I CANT AFFORD TO EAT ORGANIC GRASS!

2. Liling: Hey woman! How are u??? How did u get my blog? :)

3. Jassie: You'd read my mind. We are losing contact again after the last call. LOL.

4 Jewl: You saw me more on fb lor..still say i 'eng'. Look who's more 'eng' now. Got time to read my blog.

5. Yao isnt the new guy la..he's my poly mate. U have seen hans bef. Lol.

I seriously need to crap. And really soon.

carol and her BIG head. 4:11 PM

Ha..it's been long i had update.

Well..i have realised that blog is a very good place to remind myself what i need to get or what i intend to do. Haha..so..here it goes..my birthday wishlist for this yr.

1. Super chic trend coat that i can wear everywhere, with almost anything (formal to causal)

2. A pair of super chic boots/Dress-shoes-lookalike heels. (Category will be same as abv) I called them 'THE STATEMENT BOOTS'. Pls tell me where to get those. I'm desperately trying make a different in the office. HAHA! So i'll start with a statement shoes...

Btw, fyi. They are called the Oxford-pumps. I want a 2" or 3".

"Give a woman a pair of heels and she can conquer the world" Bette Midler once said. We couldn’t agree more; leaner legs, stolen height and an instantly seductive strut. But what if, Gok forbid, you can’t walk in your heady high heels? Inspired by Gwyneth Paltrow’s famous recent appearance in 7-inch platforms, and Selfridges reporting a 35% increase in skyscraper-esque…"

(Two thumbs up from me!)

3. One more awesomely hot suit in my wardrobe

4. More dresses (Especially LBD. i just cant live w/o them)

5. Classic carat on my finger.

6. Long lashes (I'm going for eye-lash perming..therefore..this serve as a reminder)

7. French/jap classes

8. Long,shiny,soft,smooth,silky hair (hopefully it will be long by my birthday?)

9. My company to give me a pay rise.

10. My bosses to allow me to take leave.

11. Super nice high-waisted pant to go with my current blazer. (ppl, pls look out for me?) Not in denim as i need to wear to office.

(WE GET YOU, CAROL!!) Haha..

12. Look damn freaking hot like one of those Vic's mod, in suit. (I'm working on it. Minus the daily supply of chocolates.)

13. Chace Crawford

14. Live in France/Italy.

15. Personal quote, "Be there, be bold, be beautiful" (Link to No. 14)
[this is what i mean. Check this out.
http://www.thesartorialist.blogspot.com/ ]

16. Freaking hot comtemporary collage of myself. Like those of GAP's advert. Check out their latest of Liv Tyler,

OR

something like this..

17. A pair of Wellies.
http://www.hunter-boot.com/Default.aspx?pid=1
http://www.funky-wellington-boots.co.uk/wellie-boots.htm

18. Ray ban Aviators/Wayfarers

I'm surprised why i didnt added in that i want a fuller and busty set of boobies?
Alright. i think that's enough. I'm just cant help it. Still i wanna say. i love guys in suit. E.g. below. They looked hot.

I wanna be the freaking-hot-looking siren in the coporate world(thou i'm just an intern). I'm bored with lookin normal everyday. Although i need to be in suit. therefore..i need a style. A 'me' look. Brick red lips are out. Egyptian's eye are totally out, and i have to bun my hair everyday! So..?

BTW, she looks freaking hot. I mean her suit. lol.

Oh well. It's past 1am. going to 2am. Guess i'm daydreaming.

:) :)

carol and her BIG head. 12:53 AM

i missed school. I'm not proud to say to..but ya..i missed school today..i thought is it gonna be in the afternoon 2-5p. well..guess it's too late to go (the clock read 11.23am and sch ends at 12noon.)

anw..was reading grace's blog. pretty cool eh..i think i need a change in my blog. I'm getting sick of the skin. maybe shld change to something simpler.

also..i miss melb. it's been years since i've been there. i wanna go to the beach at GC! and i wanna dress up. nowadays, i've been to slack. :(

anw 2 more days to go.. and here i go..to HOLIDAY!! hahaha..

ciao.

carol and her BIG head. 11:21 AM

well..aft much naggin for friends, i decided to update some of the stuff gg on in my life.

1. I'm desparate to get married. Wahahahahaha...and i wanted it so much that i'm sourcing for good photgrapher, wedding gowns, locations, etc.

2. For those who didnt know, i'm taking part-time diploma in accounting, on top of my full-time degree in hospitality.

3. I misses all my buddies very much as i'm stuck with routines in my life.

4. I'm going to have a party for my 21st. I'll send the invitation cards.

5. I'm still having the same bf.

6. I'd stop running and growing fat.

blah..i think this will be good enough to sum up everything?
haahaha..

7. I'm going to take my french again!!! YEAH!!!! (Hope my dad will sponsor for this?)

8. I'll might be gg back to Penang for 21st too.

9. I'm gg hols in july(Pattaya and Bangkok) and in oct (Japan).

10. I came back from HK (april)

hahahaha...
tchao

carol and her BIG head. 1:46 PM

I hated long nails now. It fucking limited my typing speed. Shit man. But i dont give a damn. I INSIST of having long nails, cause it makes me look feminine. well..hopefully. :)

This below is written to those who IS/ARE pissing me off.
Dear xxx(S),

i have enough of what u've been giving me. Please do not jeopardize the last standing impression i have for u. I wish we still could be friends. I do treasure the friendship we have (well..you will once on my 'BFF' list) but i simply couldnt care more abt whatever fuck you want to do. Thank you.

Warmest,
Carol

P.S the (S) is for more than one.

well well..go to check out on tour package. GG on a hols with my baby.

tchao.

carol and her BIG head. 11:46 AM